Drama

I've been wanting t blog, but i haven't exactly had th time t, or mood for that matter.

A day ago, 2 people annoyed th shit outta me. And yes, im allowed t complain about it because for one, i did not start anything. But being in my position, my network on facebook is rather large and th moment someone sees me 'being a bitch' just cause i retaliated t an argument with someone whom i have argued with befr(not publicly on fb where people can see), people think im arrogant and snobbish, and everything else bad. Come one, anybody would rebut t something they're not happy about. As cliche as this sounds, people are always telling you t be yourself. But when you do, you're fucking misjudged. And then they say so what if people hate you. True that, but in certain industries, its just not th way. When someone hates you, they hate you forever and your reputation gets tarnished ever so slightly, which still matters. Well, im not upset about th fact that i can't and don't want t carry on an argument publicly on my facebook status. Honestly, i really don't care what people think. But im doing this for myself. For th fact that i know im in th right, so why should i argue continuously when me and th oth party involved know that we're not gonna give up, that we know we are in th right. So why not i just be th mature one t call it quits. I don't understand why in every argument over smth, th moment you stop because you want t be th more mature one, th oth party immediately associates th whole argument t be a win-lose situation, where they win because i 'gave up'. Seriously? 

What's done is done, and its over as far as im concerned. But if i don't say what im about t say, im not speaking up for myself, hence not being who i am. And i always believed in being who you are, regardless of what people say. Now now, i know this may sound contradictory t what i just mentioned about, but its cause this is about my personal life, and no way can it affect me in any industry, esp th one i am in right now. So yes, back t th beginning.

JOSH GE - if you ever read this(i really hope that you do), you're a class A loser. I could honestly start a petition and easily get min. 20 people who dislike or rather hate you t join it. And no, do not challenge me t do it because it is a motherfucking example on how you're hated. Yes i know you say you're being yourself and if people don't like it its not your fault. But wake up dude, you bring annoyance t a whole new level. Actually, this paragraph is not t target you in any particular way, because im done telling you off about all th things you lie and boast about. And its not nice for me t state it all here, i don't have a purpose t. Even our argument th other day, i left it all behind. If you claim that you 'won', so be it. Because you think its a competition, be that way. So im assuring you that this is NOT a hate message. Th beginning part is just t clarify stuff. Because strangers who read my blog are gonna misjudge me for being a bitch who singled you out on my blog and bitched about you. This is th world we live in, i can't change that, but i can reassure. So back t my initial point on why you are a loser - DO NOT FUCKING GO AROUND TELLING PEOPLE THAT WE - WE BEING ME AND YOU HOOKED UP BEFR. You lie a hell lot, but we hooking up, for real? You actually went t that extent? Please realise that i would never in a million years hook up with you, even if you were th last male specie on Earth. I swear upon my life, really. I thought you brought annoyance t a whole new level. Guess i left out being a loser. Damn.

T th public - i don't think i need t apologise for whatsoever. Because this is MY personal life. And im not happy with people going around saying i had sex with them. So please do not come t me and say that this blog post is making me look bad as a person. I really do appreciate it, but i gotta clarify what's part of MY life.

Today, my day was perfect. Until Issac's girlfriend called me. Oh wait, i mean ex-girlfriend. Well, i don't blame any girl for being a little insecure that their boyfriend contacts another girl. I guess its human nature. But damn, this girl is a mega jealous bitch i must say. She called me, demanding how i got Issac's number. Because befr they broke up, she forced him t cut contacts with me. And now, we just started contacting back. So obviously, i had no obligation t tell her how i got his number. I mean would telling that reduce her jealousy? I didn't think so. So she started getting all feisty and scolding me, asking me t stay away from Issac. So calmly, i asked her. How long dyou know Issac for? She replied few months. And then i said dyou know how long i've known him for? Obviously she knew, because apparently she knows everything about me, probably even my IC number. But she refused t reply, and started calling me stuff like a prostitute and words bitches use when they're upset. Seriously? I just talked t my friend of 5 years, where i definitely have th right t, and im a whore for that? I guess im kinda used t all of this, because its not th first time. Again, i initiated a stop t it. Because no offence, but i really can't stand how 'minahs' roll. They go all gangsterish and urggh, just lowly classed imbeciles. And they think th whole world is afraid of them, when people just really can't be bothered t get involved in THEIR problems. So back t this bitch, she still wasn't satisfied and started texting me. Calling me a low class bitch, again when i didn't do anything. So i replied saying that she really doesn't wanna compare our standards and told her not t reply because im not so childish t argue about this jealousy thing when its her insecurity that's eating her up while she's just taking it out on me. And then she replied saying, 'wadeva..U n0t happy u come face me..I d0n fight on phone la eh!' Seriously, doesn't just looking at th way its typed annoy th fuck outta you. And i honestly don't get it because in that statement, she contradicted herself twice. Firstly, why would i not be happy? I mean th fight started because SHE was unhappy with me, no? I was enjoying a perfect day and even that didn't stop me from being happy. Secondly, she doesn't fight on th phone, but she called me AND texted after that. I replied asking her t find me if she isn't happy with me. I mean she is having all th problems after all am i right. And her reply, th most typical yet. Thinking words from a girl like her would actually bring me down, 'yaya..find u at geylang ah.hahaha!stupid!u wanna c0mpare on standard..kla u m0re standard than me la k.c0s u suck many guy dick!haha..anyh0w suck.L0l.' Come onnnn omg is calling a girl a prostitute th only way t bring her down? I don't even get how everything she said is in relation t her initial purpose of being unhappy with me, which btw, is th fact that she is an insecure and jealous girl, with really low self-esteem as she is afraid she could lose Issac anytime. And for that, she has trust issues too, which all boils back down t being insecure. So woman, why take it out on me damn. 

I thought after i left Secondary school, all this girl fights would stop (yes because i was from a girls' school) but boy was i wrong. Th real world is equally as bad.

I guess th only thing i can do is, stay true t myself, and as long as i haven't done anything wrong, its all good. I have so many things ahead of me im really excited about, and im focussing all of my energy and time on it right now. Im not getting caught up in oth peoples' problems, nor am i letting them drag me into their problems. Whenever this kinda shit happens at th time where i've got t prepare for many important stuff coming my way like all my competitions and finals in modelling. I tell myself that God's giving me a challenge t see how well i handle and juggle everything around me. And up t right now, im confident t say that im handling everything pretty well.

And with that, i just wanna say thank you t those people who've been there for me, encouraging me and cheering me up when shit happens. Be it my friends, or even just my friends on facebook, thank you so much. I really appreciate it (: Because amidst all th people i meet who would kill t bring me down, i know there are still nice people left.