Its okay t cry

I guess i've been having so many things going on lately, i haven't really assessed my emotions. Until tonight. Probably due t having so much pressure, i really can't handle it. But i know its not th time for me t breakdown, in fact i should actually be stronger than ever.

My night did not end well. I wanted t clear things. Its fucked up t like someone and probably know that they're not serious about it. If its not obvious enough, i do strongly believe that everything happens for a reason therefore i guess me being away would really clear my mind for awhile at least. Because i know i gotta do my best when im away and no way am i letting this be my barrier.

Its a whole lot worse because after tonight, i still have t pick myself up, slap all this negativity outta me, slap some sense into me, be strong and leave this place all by myself. On th bright side, im definitely going t come back being much more independent. Well, we all have stories in life and shit too, where we bring back smth at th end of all of it. And i guess this is it, for me.

Im practically living my dream right now, i shouldn't even be crying. Its so unlike th person i am right now, t let it all pull me down. Because i know deep down that im not gonna fall.

#STOP CARING ABOUT TH WHOLE MATTER, PETRINA.

Okay i feel better now. Well a little. No im definitely fine, fo sure. Alright stfu Petrina.

Anyhow, i gotta be at th airport in less than 5 hours. And then its goodbye Singapore. I will definitely miss some things, and people for that matter. Those who were really there for me. I promise myself, most importantly, that i will do my best over there even if it means killing myself inside due t pressure and what not. Haha, but yes. I should probably get some sleep right now, and sleep more on my flight later.

Goodbye everyone :)