I'm not sure how my body clock is so screwed, but I'm guessing it has something, if not all t do w thoughts and how th night comes around. Or maybe I just don't try hard enough, but really, do I really have t TRY t fall asleep? Isn't drifting off t sleep supposed t be th most relaxing activity in all living specie? Yknow how th saying goes "when you learn t control your mind, everything else falls into place" (probably not a saying word for word but I'm pretty sure Buddha said something along those lines.. Probably not too sure either) but anyway it's not really th easiest thing t do, controlling your mind especially w that subconscious little fuck in your head. Here's a daily conversation my mind has w itself:
Mind: hey Petrina it's 3am and you should be asleep but guess what, I invited thoughts over!
Thoughts: sup homies, where th party at i'ma get crunk tonight!
Me: alright Petrina this is where you control your thoughts, let go of th bad and bring in th good ones.
Subconscious Fuck: I think we should stick t th bad ones. Shit do I try t sleep now. Do I give up and write. Should I count fuckin sheeps. No no lets just allow thoughts t crash here. I mean who needs sleep. But I do need sleep. Lets try t sleep. No fuck that I need t stop thinking. I'm not sure what I should do now.
Me: fuck thissss (takes out ipad t write)
HAHA did I just type that, I guess just blame it on th 10am syndrome? God I need sleep. Where's my cuddle buddy :(
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