Even When You Try.

I'm starting t classify my blog in th same category as my religion, because its something I go t when I feel th need t - mostly in helpless situations. But really I don't have a reason t be sad anymore, hence not much thoughts t write about. Maybe I'm just finding an excuse t be sad since it is th night time. Yeah, that sounds pretty stupid. I think you can't always be happy even if you tried, because not everything is in your control. Go on about how we can control our minds? Fuck that shit and people who say that honestly, it's called a subconscious part of th mind for a fuckin reason. Fuckin definition contradicts being in control so all that is definitely bullshit. They should've just left it as thoughts fuck you up but life goes on, that's more realistic. A million reasons t believe I should be closer t God, a million and one t believe I shouldn't. But am I allowed t blame God for my mind? Or am I supposed t praise God for obstacles that are meant t make me a stronger person? Well if that's th case, then it's not working God and you should know by now that instead of being stronger it's just getting used t it altogether. I don't think God rewards people for appreciating th darkness nights bring does he? Never thought I'd say this, but sometimes it's extremely hard t be fine when you're really not. But here goes another worthless paragraph, not as worthless as statuses on Facebook negatively directed t someone else I guess, hahaha.