Don't Need No Saving

I've reached a point where my medicine isn't doing shit for me, up at 4 in th morning all over again, coating my sore fuckin throat w tar. I had th weirdest fuckin dream last night, apart from th rest. But this one, keeps replaying in my mind all th time. Not keeping me awake though, reality is. And sleeping it off becomes mundane.

Fuck th above shit, that was last night when I decided fuck word play cause I didn't need that shit. At least not then.

I'm scared tonight, it just kicked in actually. It's 3:42am. I wish I didn't have t be alone tonight. But don't we all learn t adapt. I wish I woke up t a new world, let alone wonder how i fall asleep in this one. How is it we go t sleep so soundly each night, when th world is such an evil place, one filled w contempt. That used t keep me up for awhile, but right now I have my own world t deal w. Inhale love, exhale hate. Well then I guess th air around me didn't clear up fast enough huh? I envision what it's like in my vessels right now. W a encapsulated drug bursting, spilling into my bloodstream. Heart pumping faster t th beat of a foreign substance, dispersing oxygen rich, intense red blood through my arteries, but all it's getting back is hate flowing through my veins, contaminating my heart - blood so sucked out of oxygen, lacking in color, in intensity. Almost cold, ice cold so blue, so blue like a numbing sensation. But I still feel, what's life if we don't feel? My heart sets its tone for th night, never getting used t it, just adapting - all we were made t do. It surprised me I haven't really mentioned my mind. Well that's clogged up for now, and I'm in no state t fix up a jigsaw puzzle, or find th missing pieces. So we'll just leave that in th box. Also, my eyes are closing up on me. Not sure if my heart will shut down on me too, but we'll see. Pretty confident it's in safe hands but then again, how safe am I t myself? I would like t think otherwise but th truth sets us free. Not in this case? Well then I pray that if th truth can't, then I'll set myself free. But for now, it's time I blow off my candle flame, and embrace th darkness.