Happy Birthday Dad <3
Th significance of birthdays has decreased drastically t me. Th only way i can think of celebrating my next birthday is partying and getting shitfaced.
I've been sleeping so fuckin much due t undisclosed reasons. I woke up at 12pm, felt really sick so i fell asleep all th way till 8plus. I was so pissed off with myself because i slept through my plans. I woke up feeling really fucked up for some reason, and receiving a message really blew it. Life hasn't been all rainbows and butterflies, but that's alright because shit happens and nothing is perfect. However i haven't been handling it well enough. I don't know if it totally my fault, but some days i just really need time out. From everything. From people. We all need personal space, but what i didn't see is that th way i get my space, is probably perceived as me trying t push everyone away from my life. That's not what i intend t do, but i guess we all make mistakes. If you're reading this, and you're one of those who's close t me yet i've been pushing you away, i apologise because i don't mean what i do.
On a side note though, if you're being really bitchy when i never really did anything t you. Im giving you an invitation t fuck off because i don't need those people around me, esp not at this point of my life.
And if you haven't been speaking t me for a long time, and suddenly come back into my life. Don't expect me t prioritise you, because it doesn't work that way.
Everything's shady right now, i don't know what i want. I don't know a lot of things. But i do know for a fact that i'll find out. If you're gonna help, by all means. But if you're just present t budge into my life, then stay outta it.
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